After months of ups and downs with FI.
I find myself this morning for the first time ever that I can recall, dreading today’s football fixtures and all the FI bullshit that goes with it ... spread sheets, data, Opta ......
At this point in time for me. FI has managed to kill my passion for football ( I know it will probably be a different tune when they unveil the new plan .... or at least I hope !! )
Week after week I find it all so pointless, consuming and draining. I think if they were to offer me my money back right now I’d probably fuck off and be relieved and start enjoying football again as I just feel I’m now eternally locked in.
It feels like FI have unlimited power to hold me hostage until they hopefully make it big time and I can exit ( I do still believe it will happen .... it’s just the endless depressive state it’s in, compounded with the latest announcement keeping us in the dark )
Sitting here quietly mulling over their latest bombshell in my head as I do 1,000 times a day, it just seems so backhanded and disingenuous, which is a shame as I’d just started enjoying FI again over Christmas and had put all the previous but fucking they’d given me behind me.
I’m preying that this new non IPD based structure means I don’t have this daily grind that I’m so sick of now, and if they move the posts again after this I’m going to have to seriously think about taking a loss and leaving .... it’s not that I need the money right now ( wouldn’t want to loose it all either mind you ) but the amount of my time it consumes in its current state is not good ( to be honest, it’s only due to Covid that I have any time to spend on this anyway ).
A week feels like a month on here .... all I want is what I thought I’d originally signed up to. An investment/ gamble that has clear unchanging rules where I can pop in and out of on occasion to tweak and adjust my portfolio ..... perhaps even see what profits I’m making 😂